It's Is All About Us :)

Hi. I’m Julia. I live in Missouri and I’m 17 years old. I’ve lived the life of a prisoner. My biological parents didn’t want me. I was the adult they  NEVER were. 

I have 4 siblings. Not including myself.

One who has been in prison and DYS his entire life. I never saw him. He turned out the way my parents wanted him to. They wanted him to be nothing. Nothing to the world. Nothing to himself. He was the oldest.

Then there’s me. 2nd oldest of 4 siblings. They tried to break me. They weren’t strong enough. They thought I would just let them beat me to nothing like my older brother. Well they were wrong. I’m beautiful. I’m strong. I am lovable. I’m nothing like what they said. I’m not worthless. I’m not ugly. I am not broken. My life mission is to show them that i will be better than them.

Then there’s my sister. 3rd oldest of 4 siblings. She is there slave. I’ve tried countless times to show her that she can be better than what they want her to be. “Misery loves Company”. I’ve told her this countless times. She just wants them to get better. She thinks she can cure them. I envy her for trying. 

Then there’s my two youngest siblings. They stick together. No matter what happens. 

My step-father was a physical and emotional abuser. He would beat us till we gave in and cried. I wouldn’t give him the pleasure. He would start hitting my siblings but he would never get a second swing in. I would put myself in the middle and make him attack me. No one ever deserves to be treated that way. NEVER! 

His words are what hurt the worst. Everything he said seemed like it would come true. Some of the words he has said stick to this day. “You will be just like your mother. A prostitute. You will be nothing. You’re worthless.” he would say. I’m proving him wrong. 

My mother is a sad case. She has been beaten her entire life. Beaten down into the earth till she was nothing. She doesn’t understand that I still love her even through all the pain she put me through. She still is my mom.

Life sucks at times but thats just life. I’m lucky I’m still alive. I’m a survivor. And This is only part of my story.